Lucid Intent? No
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I was on holiday alone to take a break from all the happenings in England. However, I started feeling alone and thought to myself that I couldn’t take it anymore so I went into the sea and tried to drown myself. At the first couple of times I went under water, I couldn’t bring myself to breathe the water in, I was too scared but then I finally picked up the courage and breathed in a little bit of water. I started regretting it instantly, my lungs burnt with the sea water and I was gasping for breath which made me breathe in more water. It was the most painful thing I had done and drowning certainly wasn’t as peaceful as I thought it would be.
I woke up on a bed in a room with seven other people in. It looked like I was in a hospital. The person next to me was a boy with a bandage on his left leg and next to him was a girl with brown hair; they both looked to be about my age. The rest of the people in the room were much older. The nurse eventually came in and told me what happened, apparently some guy caught me drowning and brought me to this hospital, they told me that I would have to stay in for a couple of days not only because of drowning but because of my suicidal ways.
I got up out the bed and decided to take a look around the room, the guy then got up and started talking to me and then the girl joined in. It was nice to make friends as I felt so alone, especially in a hospital. They took me down to this cafe that was on the floor below us, it was really packed. I wasn’t really hungry so we didn’t spend very long in there; we started walking around the hospital and just generally hanging out.
Later on in the day, we got back into the room and the nurse was checking on the guy’s leg. She opened up the bandage and the older nurse with brown hair looked away and heaved; the doctor was pulling faces too. I was curious as to what his leg looked like. Suddenly, I was overwhelmed with dizziness and I fell off my bed. The nurses came up to me and put me back on the bed, I knew that I would have to rest for a while.
As I was sitting on the bed, the nurse gave me a sandwich. The guy next to me asked me if I wanted to see his leg as he was finally ready to show me because he had been embarrassed about it. I didn’t know whether to see it or not as the nurse’s reaction didn’t seem too promising but I was curious so I nodded. He started un-wrapping his bandage until it all came off. I could see why the nurses were disgusted. His leg was pure purple and with leaking puss everywhere, it was the most disgusting thing I had ever seen, but gory things never made me feel uneasy. I looked at my sandwich and carried on eating it.
As he finally picked up the courage to show me his leg, I decided to tell him the reason why I was in the hospital. I told him how I tried to commit suicide. He was a little shocked but we didn’t really talk about it.
The next morning, I woke up and got changed and me and my two mates went walking around the hospital again to the cafe and in the different rooms. The nurse called me over and told me that I might be going home today depending how my check up goes. I went into the hospital room I stayed in and collected my things; I noticed that they did up my bed ready for someone else. It looked like I was leaving; however, I didn’t know whether to be happy or sad as I would never see my new friends again.
I went into this other room and lay down where they were checking my blood pressure. The first attempt of the blood pressure check went wrong because I was fidgeting so the screen shown my blood pressure was 98 which weren’t right so they tried again but this time it was 104 which they said was fine and because of that, I could go home.
I went into this hall in the hospital where my two friends were and we were just having our last chat. It turned out they were going home too but not until later on. They both lived in the United Kingdom but miles away from me. We just sat down and started listening to some Children of Bodom and some other music; I had a really good time until I had to go. I was going to miss them both, especially the guy, I started to develop feelings for him during my stay so I knew I was going to miss him. We took each other’s Facebook address and I went.
When I arrived in England, my mom picked me up from the airport and because of the incident abroad; I had to stop with my parents that night. I wasn’t very happy about it because I didn’t get on with my parents and I lived with my Nan because of it but it looked like I had no choice. When I arrived there, my mate Casey was there waiting for me. Her and my dad had an argument due to past issues and it was starting to annoy me so I told my dad to shut up and drop it and I took her upstairs. I started telling her what had happened while I was away and then we started talking about how bad my parents were.
‘Can you see why I live with my Nan now’, I told Casey.
We sat at the top of the stairs while my parents were at the bottom and me and my mom started arguing. She really was annoying me and I knew that it wouldn’t be long until my dad got involved which would make the situation much worse. I just wanted to be back at my Nan’s.