back to conservative, religious dreams
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I'm working with a "Paul Kelly" on some court cases [I don't know a Paul Kelly, and I've been watching way too much Court TV!]. Then I'm outdoors doing some gardening. I'm telling someone an incredible story [which I couldn't remember once I woke up]. I realize that I'm lying and making it all up, but it's so weird -- as soon as the words are out of my mouth, the lie becomes a "false memory," and I believe the things really happened to me.I wake up. I'm kind of amazed that not only was it a dream with "false memory" (some people on here call it "dream memory" -- whatever the case, it's a memory you have in the dream that, on awakening, you realize never happened). This dream was even made stranger by the fact that I was telling a lie, and it became a "false memory" the second the words came out of my mouth.
I eat a yogurt and go back to bed.
I do a relaxation exercise where I'm concentrating on slowing my heart down. I go directly from the waking state into a dream! I'm very excited about this, but I realize I have to contain it, because it will cause me to wake up.
I've gone into a dreamscape where I'm flying over a dark countryside. The dream has very low cohesion -- things keep falling apart. [I couldn't remember much of this dream on waking up -- I'm not sure why, because I was certainly very lucid in it. It could be that it was because I wasn't that well-rested yet, which I think affects how much you remember of a dream] Some landscape where I'm doing magical things.
I wake up and do the relaxation exercise again. This time I go back to sleep. A little while later, I find myself in a world that is coming to an end. Basic living essentials are running out everywhere [I think this was affected by watching a little bit of that new show, Jericho]. I slip into "religious mode" and become convinced that I need to be religious and be "on God's side."
This is a recurring theme for me. In real life, I'm a spiritual person, but I don't subscribe to any religion. I think if I was something I would be a Unitarian Universalist or maybe even a Tibetan Buddhist; but I don't feel the need for my spirituality to be "organized." However, in this dream, I'm back in the mindset where I'm thinking, "I was wrong to question my conservative religious upbringing. Everything about the religion I grew up in is correct. I will never question it again." This mindset is always so overwhelming in these kind of dreams -- it's like the critical thinking part of my brain is just shut off, and I'm making decisions with my feelings only [and they're probably the "dusty bones" of guilt, since my parents' conservative religion is fueled 99% by guilt].
We get into a cafeteria line -- I'm with one of my brothers and some friends. I take things and put them on my tray, but I resolve to give the delicious things to people needier than myself [this is something I really would do in real life, but it has more to do with my personal code of ethics than it does with religion]. They are even running out of food items, for different kinds of fruit juice are advertised on little sign holders, but they're out of them. We go to look for poor people to give the things to, but this city is already pretty much deserted.
I wake up and think, Why did I become so religious in a dream again? Haven't these kind of dreams stopped yet?
Additional Comments:
I think maybe what I need to try doing is to "arrange" to have a dream in which I'm religious -- but in which I'm a Tibetan Buddhist or a Unitarian Universalist. Maybe that would help me clear up my thoughts about this and stop the *conservative religious* dreams from recurring.