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30 years of wedding preparation.

Date of dream: Thursday, January 10, 2008

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I am in a pleasant countryside setting stood outside a beautiful long old English mansion made from beautiful ancient stones which are covered in lichen. I’m watching a young man and woman interact and talk with one another.

(Although these two dream characters came across as separate entities within themselves at some deeper level I know that I am the dream man and also the woman too).

The woman comes as being extremely intelligent, well organized and in control whereas the man on the other hand seems to be a bit of a dreamer, airy and not very with it.

The lady and man intend to get married but the woman wants to have the best wedding possible so she sends her fiancé away so that she can concentrate on accumulating wealth with her business skills in order to fund their marriage.

30 years of time passes by before the woman feels satisfied that she has achieved her goal and is ready to marry, in all of that time her boyfriend stayed faithful to her, he remained in the room she sent him to and he didn’t really get up to very much and just whiled away the time lazing around dreamily it was almost as if he were in hibernation.

The woman now looks a little tired from her epic hard work and she has a grey streak in her hair from where she has grown older, she wants to get rid of this before she goes to meet her future husband so she dyes her hair brown once again. Miraculously after the woman has colored her hair she transforms back to her previous youthful state just like at the beginning of the dream.

A dry run is planned before the actual wedding takes place and I go along to watch, it takes place on the paved grounds outside an enormous cathedral. A great procession is taking place on the great expanse of space just outside the holy place with hundreds of priests and choir boys all dressed in white marching along.

Although I’m not at all religious the atmosphere at this part of the dream was extremely pleasant and nice with lots of excitement and expectation for the big day.

Just then a tiny little burgundy van swerves through the parade, the little vehicle looks like it has come straight tout from the 1930’s and was the type used to deliver fresh bread. The small car weaves and twists erratically between the priests and choir boys, it looks really funny and I gather is actually meant to be a part of the festivities for the wedding.

I decide that I would like to be the one who drives the funny little van on the day of the actual wedding in fact the urge and desire to perform this task is extremely strong. As the little vehicle passes closer I see that it is a fudge delivery van (???). In waking life I absolutely love fudge but what this has to do with wedding in the dream I haven’t a clue.

Additional Comments:

Interpretation: Again like yesterdays dream this seems to be another continuation of the coming together of masculine and feminine elements, in this dream it was much more clear for me to see and feel that both the lazy male and focused woman were in fact both aspects of myself. One facet of the dream is probably emphasizing ways in which I can maximize certain latent qualities in order to benefit my overall self. The only real puzzle was the little fudge van at the end, as I mentioned earlier I love fudge in waking life and the van was really a positive symbol and it seemed like a real privilege to be able to drive it in the wedding procession although by the need of the dream it wasn’t clear whether I would be offered this opportunity on the real wedding day.

Dream 1: Stir crazy – I appear to be watching and partly involved in a version of the comedy movie ‘Stir Crazy’ only things in this dreams version are quite different. I’m in the prison watching Gene Wilder (he appeared in another of my dreams only a week or two ago?) he is with the prison warden discussing a deal they have made, in my dream instead of Gene’s character being a Rodeo rider he has been coerced into helping the wardens son put a new roof on his house or barn. I see a vision of the beautiful roof collapsing in on itself as something went wrong with the construction, in their reality this seems like a comical disaster but for me it’s entertaining and amusing if a tiny bit disappointing to see all of that hard work go to waste. The way the warden and Gene interact is very funny and comical just like in the real movie. About two thirds into the dream I see a subliminal message flash up on my blackened dream screen, it’s the bright red logo for a dry cleaning company.

Dream 2: Trying to entertain in a messy house – I find myself in a vaguely familiar house (it looks like the one my parents lived in whilst I was living at my Nan’s, I only ever visited this house once or twice). The property in itself is okay but it’s a complete mess with lots of unwashed crockery and old food lying strewn about particularly in the kitchen area. I’ve invited lots of people over to visit some seem like vague work colleagues and others dream friends but one character stands out more than all of the others she is a female manager from my place of work. I sit down with this lady and start chatting with her casually. I notice that I have my legs spread wide open in a very masculine kind of way, the dream ‘me’ doesn’t seem to be aware of the brusqueness of this gesture but the bit of me that is conscious realizes that this kind of body language seems like some kind of open and blunt sexual invitation, the little bit of me that notices this is very embarrassed. A little later I go out to the kitchen to try and prepare some food for my guests but it turns out to be a real chore as all of the plates are covered in old food, somebody asks me if they could have a salad but all I can find is old salad which has gone off. I’m really trying my best to throw something together with what I’ve got and I also make a big effort to wash up the crockery, although the dream me is making a big effort for the guests the little part of me that is conscious feels terribly embarrassed.

Dream 4: Boxes of brick-a-brack – I find myself back at an apartment I lived in about 6 years ago, strangely my parents seem to be living here in the dream and may even own the flat. My wife isn’t about and appears to be away or even moved out, all of her belongings have been gathered together in two or three large cardboard boxes it is my job to sift through the boxes and decide what should be kept and what should be discarded. A great deal of the stuff in the containers appears to be junk and can be discarded but I have some trouble deciding whether or not to throw away some old grey music or recording cassettes, I wonder if my wife wouldn’t have wanted me to put these aside and keep them. As I sort through the boxes I see one or two rather unpleasant earwigs which are grey in color which only adds to emphasize their squeamishness, my mother comes over and slowly presses her thumb down on top of the insect in an almost malicious way. The creature’s guts squirt out of its body in a long snotty trail which the mortally crippled bug drags behind itself in an attempt to get away, it eventually falls off the edge of the cardboard box onto the floor and to its doom. My stepfather is in another room and wants me to find him some ground coffee which I go off and search around the house for, he also complains that it’s really hard to find good guitar music nowadays. He nostalgically reels off a few of the bands he liked in his day. I propose to him that a good band combination would be to have the late lead singer and guitarist from the band Big Country teaming up front for the band U2, something about this combination seems very special and tantalizing.

Dream 5: The golden rabbit – I’m walking across a large cobbled town square near to a familiar cathedral (second cathedral dream tonight) a female work colleague accompanies me and leads me over to a quaint old worldly little sweet shop. My friend leads the way and we both enter through the very low front door into a shop packed full of customers, there are so many people here (mainly women of all ages) that it is actually very difficult to move. My colleague points out three extremely delicate leaf shaped chocolates on a tiny silver platter these three delicacies are incredibly intricate and must have been made by a master chocolatier, she adds that she would like to buy them but in order to handle the fragile chocolates one must wear a pair of special white gloves (like the kind a pianist might wear). I turn around and catch a glimpse of another little silver tray with three little bunny’s displayed on it, the rabbits are sat on all fours which creates a pleasing and life like shape. The rabbits are very real in appearance each sits in a row at a neat diagonal angle, the rabbit at each end is made from high quality chocolate and the rabbit in the middle is made from gold. The tray with the three rabbits strikes me as being extremely positive and completely catches my attention. The shop seems far to busy though and things start to become uncomfortable, in order to leave the shop I literally have to back out through the little front door in reverse as there isn’t even the space for me turn around.

Dream 6: Fiery prosthetic phallus – I find myself watching a drama in an oppressive women’s prison, I am aware that there is a large aggressive butch lesbian here who picks on all of the other women. The nasty woman has her eye on a very slight and androgynous young female who I sense she even wants to taunt and abuse. I watch as the very slight woman runs off down a corridor and asks for help (my help?) to be lowered into a large tank of water in order to hide from the horrible woman, she then asks to have salt and vinegar sprinkled into the tank whilst she is submerged apparently this will help throw the bully off her scent. As the lean woman runs to evade the other female she makes a strange soft wailing noise which sounds a bit like how cats cry or how a wolf howls or even like the wind blowing or whistling, the sound is very soft and haunting and it’s very difficult to tell just from her voice if she is actually an effeminate male or a female. The scene shifts back to the cell of the huge woman’s where I see her dressed in her prison clothes and sat in a very masculine Bacchus like reclining position. Disturbingly she has a long thick rolled up wad of paper (something like a magazine rolled into a tube except that the pages are white) stuffed between her legs very close to her crotch, it’s obvious that she is using the roll of paper as some kind of prosthetic penis. Most disturbing of all she has set light to the tip of the paper which is in flames and resembles an old fiery torch, the look on the woman’s face is very sleazy and wicked.
  • Themes
  • Romance
  • Music
  • Spiritual
  • Settings
  • Home
  • Present
  • Work
  • Emotions
  • Peaceful
  • Keywords
    Wedding
    Hair
    Cathedral
    Priest
    Fudge
    Add'l Emotions
    Intelligence
    Languor
    Love
    Exaltation
    Desire

    The little cedar forest.

    Date of dream: Saturday, December 15, 2007

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    I sweep down through the sky and come to land gently on a very quiet countryside road, it’s almost as if I’m introduced into the dream scene of some kind of holiday television programme or a series about emigrating abroad, this sensation is only brief before the dream story begins proper and becomes more involving.

    I come to land very gently alongside a woman who is roughly my age with long black shiny hair she has a slightly dark complexion, I sense that she is from India. We walk along the road chatting with one another it she who speaks and I who listens.

    The woman tells me that the place where we are walking through is Oxfordshire she also mentions another name which is more precise for the particular location where we are (bizarrely I was enquiring and asking questions about this dream detail in another dream from tonight! See Dream 4: Lucid questions, spangled clouds & walnut cat food).

    We seem to be up on high ground overlooking a beautiful forested landscape I don’t recognize the area very much although it does look vaguely familiar and sort of does look a bit like the countryside near to Oxford.

    The woman explains that she is walking to an old church where she has been invited to the wedding of a close friend, I feel as if I am permitted to tag along. I can see the steeple of the church down in a field below us a short way off in the distance unusually I see that the church or cathedral is made entirely from wood and looks very medieval in style its intriguing and I’m looking forward to getting a closer look at it.

    As we walk the lady tells me that one day she would like to marry her husband here at the same church one day too, I sense that her friends who are getting married are very well off and have want for nothing. The lady herself also seems to be very comfortable, I gather that she works as a vet and I sense that all she needs now to make her life complete is to get married to her boyfriend.

    As we continue to walk through the countryside landscape I notice that the forests of tall pine trees to my left look a little dead with brown pine needles and even further along the lane I see the huge chopped up trunks off enormous trees lying scattered on some muddy land. A few of the trees appear to have been burnt. I also see one enormous tree that appears to have been uprooted, its laying on its side with a great abundance of thick tendril like roots sticking out from one end, its an extremely striking sight it looks as if some foresters have been clearing the old woodland.

    Just then the woman I’m walking calls out excitedly “Oh look! A little cedar forest!” she pulls my arm so that I follow her and we both leave the road to walk through a meadow down into an area where lots of little cedar trees have been planted, it appears that a new forest has been planted in place of the one we have just passed which was dead or dying.

    The young woman seems to be very excited by the baby trees and especially that they are the cedar variety, I feel quite elated by the new growth too but I also felt a bit pulled away from seeing that interesting church we were heading toward but it’s okay as we seem to have plenty of time.

    Just then I hear a strange buzzing sound coming from beneath the ferns and other undergrowth, at first I think its an animal like a bee or something but I then realize that it sounds much too real for that and what I’m actually hearing or almost feeling is the familiar buzzing sensation that usually accompanies out of body experiences when I have them.

    Additional Comments:

    Interpretation: I think that the new forest probably represents new growth and development, the cedar trees might be playing with words as in to cede or give way to something. I’ve also read that forests can represent transitional phases and walking through forests can represent using ones instincts to explore the subconscious. The marriage aspirations might represent some kind of union maybe between male and female aspects the females occupation of vet might represent a way of working with instincts and might be a balancing effect that would be beneficial to have now? Perhaps the development is even in the area of out of body experiences as the buzzing I sensed at the end of this dream was just like the feeling I have when having oobe’s. I have been thinking about out of body experiences just lately and even concentrating on trying to induce lucid dreams. I think that I’m having more success with becoming lucid especially as I was cross examining dream characters in later dreams, also the view of the sky was incredibly vivid. One thing I read which I think is helping me with lucid dreaming at the moment is that I’m making sure that I don’t feel completely exhausted just before I go to bed, I’ve been thinking throughout the day and focusing on keeping back a small reserve of energy which I use to concentrate of being lucid just before going to bed, I’ve also been trying to go to bed much earlier too which has also helped.

    Dream 2: The Stranglers – Its evening time and my Mum and stepfather have brought me out to a very old English style country pub, although I am my adult self in the dream I feel like a I’m being treated like a kid and as if I’ve been dragged here sort of against my will. The pub is sort of cozy and old worldly with a low ceiling, unusually it is full of rough male biker types all dressed in black leather jackets lounging about and lent up against walls chatting. I feel really quite intimated by the atmosphere but nobody really pays me any attention and they just carry n chatting amongst themselves with a brief glance over their shoulders. I suddenly become aware of my own clothes and realize that I too am dressed like the biker men. All of a sudden I wish that I had a fabric badge on my jacket which had the motif of the English punk band “The Stranglers”, I seem to think that this would either impress the other bikers or ward them off somehow. I go over and sit down on a very soft sofa and still feeling peeved and uncomfortable I ponder what I’ll take to drink, I eventually decide that I’ll take a pint of cider.

    Dream 3: Beckham’s bum – I find myself watching a football match in a large stadium between some kind of regular English premier league team who are playing against a kind of All Stars squad whose central player is David Beckham. The match seems to be a lighthearted affair with the regular team eventually coming out on top and winning. Both sides celebrate and clap and cheer at the end though as it seems to have all been about entertainment and showmanship rather than out and out competition. As Beckham stands in the centre circle clapping the supporter’s two players from the opposition run up behind him and whip his shorts down around his ankles, it’s a really funny moment and even he sees the funny side of it. As if to play along with the joke David runs around the pitch half naked like a streaker still applauding and waving to the very surprised crowd.

    Dream 4: Lucid questions, spangled clouds & walnut cat food – I have come out for the day with my Mum and little sister to a countryside park which is either near to or a part of the grounds belonging to a very old castle. Arranged out and about on the green are lots of tables with things for sale upon them just like at a country fair, I go over to the first table near to the entrance of this place and see lots of maps, atlases and guide books spread out. I assume that all of these maps and brochures are free sort of like tourist information so I pick up another glossy, thick and very real atlas, I ‘m just about to walk away with it when I turn it over and see that it actually costs £33. I don’t have any money with me and put the atlas back where I found it feeling quite disappointed. I can feel that I have been very aware in this dream but I suddenly become more so and have something of my waking consciousness with me, I start to ask my Mum and sister about the location I was at in my first dream of the evening my Mum mentions that it was a little village in Oxford called Falcon (no such place exists to my knowledge, but either way I found this remarkable that I was actually questioning dream characters about a previous dream that I had the same night. I think that this really shows I’m making some headway with my lucid dreaming attempts, something which I have been focusing on a lot just lately). My Mum and little sister both go over and lay down on a steep grassy bank and start sunbathing, the weather is perfect and when I look up at the sky I’m stunned and feel totally lucid by what I see. The sky is a perfect blue with lots of wispy spangled clouds, its beautiful and so real just as if I were awake and viewing a regular skyscape only that I can’t ever imagine seeing a sky like this one in waking life. I walk over to a stall where I look at a selection of second hand books and old prints and engravings all of which I find very interesting, as I browse my Mum and little sister call out out to me and tell me that I should start drawing again. I make a note of their advice and go and kneel down on the grass not far from the book stall. I break open a walnut and start to eat the contents which taste of walnuts but unusually also taste very sweet and sugary just like dates. As I eat my nut a rather scraggy and scrawny black cat comes up to me and rubs itself against me being affectionate, I have nothing to really offer the cat but I share a bit of my walnut date with it which it seems to be very grateful for and enjoys a lot.

    Dream 5: Broken magnifying glass – I find myself as an observer in a chic 1960’s style restaurant, a suave charmer is in the process of seducing another mans wife by taking her out on a date. I appear to be part of some kind of mob who have links to the husband of the two timing woman, the gang plans on knocking this guy off. The scene changes and I find myself at fetid swamp late at night, some gangsters are up to the waists in sludgy water and it looks like they are disposing of a body possibly the charmers. I sense that the gangsters are a bit simple almost innocent in a bizarre kind of way. Later in the evening driving around my old hometown I’ve asked some gangsters to get rid of another body for me, as I pass by the rear of a club I see two men dumping a body into a large wheelie bin, they sort of nod and acknowledge me that the disposing of the body is going okay and according to plan. I drive into town but come to a cul-de-sac where I need to reverse and turn around, I’m not even driving and am in the passenger seat but I can’t actually see who the driver is it’s as if they are hidden somehow. Lots of heavy shopping bags are placed between my legs full of all sorts of brick-a-brack strange items. As morning comes on I walk up past the rear of the building where the body was dumped everything is now quite as it is very early. I carry my shopping bags up through a suburban area. The bags contain very jingly jangle items that make a quite a bit of noise, a male resident comes out from his house I can tell from his accent that he is an American man, he shouts at me for making so much noise early in the morning and waking up the neighborhood. He argues and calls a gang of youths over who are patrolling the suburbs with baseball bats, the boys wear Italian football tops and one carry a small alms bowl for collecting coins from the residents who they protect, the man starts shouting and arguing but I tell the boys who I assume are Italian that they should remember their Italian roots. My wife is along side me and although the situation is pretty tense I somehow manage to diffuse the problem and talk my way out of it. Unfortunately in the heat of the argument I drop one of my shopping bags and see that a large magnifying glass has fallen to the floor and broken. The big lens has snapped away from the handle, rather than discard it I take it with me with the intention of repairing it later.
  • Themes
  • Spiritual
  • Settings
  • Present
  • Emotions
  • Peaceful
  • Activities
  • Flying
  • Keywords
    Oxford
    Forest
    Church
    Wedding
    Cedar
    Add'l Emotions
    Pleasantness
    Aspiring
    Comfortable
    Intrigued
    Lucidity

    Promotion brings mixed emotion.

    Date of dream: Thursday, September 27, 2007

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    I find myself visiting a hardware store in my childhood hometown that specialized in kitchen wares and utensils (it’s a shop that seemed to be there for an eternity but that I only noticed in passing but never entered. For some reason this location and building is something of a recurring symbol for me where many different dramas take place in my dreams).

    Many work colleagues are with me and we seem to have come here on some kind of work trip, a familiar male and female comment on some chrome kitchen utensils mentioning that they have some like that (sort of strange gadgetry for making fancy little melon balls and the like). I proudly call over to them saying that I have some of those too.

    We all walk around some kind of open buffet where we can take some food and then sit at a table for lunch. There are two food options bland vegetables or spicy curry I instinctively go for the spicy food. There seems to be something of a difference of opinion between two groups as to which is the best choice of food but for me it’s clear that the spicy food is best.

    A familiar carefree male colleague announces that he is leaving for a far off land, he isn’t going to tell his Mum he is leaving but is just going to up and leave, this strikes me as a quite shocking thing to do but also very liberating.

    Another older male colleague comes over and prepares me for some more news by telling me that his female friend (another colleague I work closely with) is going to be promoted, he says this to me in a firm almost intimidating manner and as if I simply have to swallow what he is telling me.

    The promotion announcement is made to everyone and it’s celebrated with a wedding party which is mainly for the woman who is being promoted (although it could have been a double wedding shared also by myself). The party is a grand affair and I see my colleague dressed in a big puffy black satin wedding dress she bizarrely seems to have married another unidentifiable woman dressed in a matching and more traditional white wedding dress.

    I watch as they dance together and then go to separate ends of the outdoor dance floor, the woman in white is making a running leap into the arms of the colleague in the black dress. It looks like there could be an accident if the colleague doesn’t manage to catch and support the weight of her friend she might end up dropping her.

    The woman in the black dress does actually manage to catch her safely it’s quite a moment with lots of anticipation and relief.

    Some more guests arrive and start filling the dance floor most of which seem to be here as friends of my mum and who are celebrities from one of the soap operas she watches. One woman in particular stands out whose name is Pat in the TV series (the name might be relevant I guess as I can’t think why I would dream of her) she is a tough burly character who often dresses in a gaudy kind of way but she is also sensitive if I remember correctly).

    Regarding my female work colleague and considering the way her male friend spoke to me and broke the news I don’t feel so sad about the goings on and I feel quite indifferent about the promotion, in fact I feel kind of free to do what I want a bit like the male colleague who just decide to up and leave.
  • Settings
  • Present
  • Work
  • Characters
  • Celebrity
  • Other Relative(s)
  • Emotions
  • Peaceful
  • Keywords
    Kitchen
    Curry
    Promotion
    Wedding
    Leap
    Add'l Emotions
    Carefree
    Celebration
    Relief
    Leaving
    Indifferent