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Lucid dream 2.

Date of dream: Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Level of Lucidity:     Level of Cohesiveness:     Rating:
Lucid Intent? No    

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(I became fully lucid half way through this dream it wasn’t planned so the experience came as quite a surprise).

It is daytime and I find myself on a remote island far out at sea, the inhabitants of the island consist of strange children (or adults?) who look like miniature adults but act like kids, this juxtaposition is most arresting and unsettling, particularly when I see the face of the first of the eerie islanders.

I sense that the islanders are being held back from evolving by being stranded on this island, regardless of the fact that theses strange infant/adults just want to play all day long I feel that I want to help them to escape the island so decide to show them how to build a huge wooden boat a bit like an ark, I pay particular attention in showing them how to make the boat waterproof using home made tar.

Once the boat is finished I get all of the islanders on board the wooden vessel and we set sail for a better place, but after sailing for only a short while and reaching just beyond the harbor our ship is attacked by a sea monster.

The mysterious beast looks like a cross between a shark and an octopus but has the clear flesh of a jellyfish. We fight the beast with the toy wooden swords that belong to the infantile islanders and eventually manage to kill the sharktopuss.

The feat was so tiring for us though that we are unable to continue on with our voyage of discovery and escape so we decide to turn the boat around and head back towards the island in order rest and recuperate.

Back on the beach I discover a strange ancient console made from cream colored marble, the panel consists of something of two large round buttons and a blank marble screen.

Immediately upon seeing the strange ancient computer I become fully lucid.

I push the large right hand button on the plinth and the rusty brown marble like swirls begin to move in a clockwise motion similar to cream being added to a mug of stirred coffee, I become very excited by what I see as it seems like pure magic.

I want to call out to somebody, anybody to tell them that I am lucid and that I know that I am dreaming but I am speechless and unable to speak such is my excitement.

The cloudy swirls on the button soon begin to form something of a picture and after a while I am able to see the portrait of a handsome bearded man appear through the marbled clouds, I think to myself “He looks quite dashing and intriguing sporting his beard”.

The main marble screen of the console illuminates and comes to life and I witness a scene taking place in a hospital. I see a half naked Japanese couple stood upright having sex, the couple seem to be really enjoying themselves and receiving great pleasure from the sex.

I’m suddenly and abruptly transported to my Nan’s house and find myself on the landing just outside the toilet, the door is open and I see a grandmotherly figure bent down next to a flip-top waste bin in the toilet.

I immediately know that something isn’t right in the way that my Nan is stood with her back to me, for one this person is wearing a white wig of curly hair quite unlike my Nan.

A very unpleasant and frightening voice suddenly tells me to come closer and dump the newborn baby I am holding into the pedal bin in the toilet (the child is the one that was born from the previous relations between the Japanese couple).

I will never do such a thing though, I creep and step forward very hesitantly wanting to see who this figure is with their back to me as it certainly isn’t my Nan. As I get closer the figure turns and I’m horrified to see that it is the horrible Freddy Kruger character that has been popping up in my dreams just lately, he has disguised himself as my grandmother in something reminiscent of the wolf from the Little Red Riding Hood fairy tale.

The tension rises terribly but I somehow manage to keep my composure and we embrace in yet another titanic struggle eventually staggering and wrestling one another into the bathroom.

I have the Freddy character in a vicious headlock and try my best to beak his neck but it’s no good as he’s too strong, I just have the time to notice that this probably isn’t even the Freddy character let alone my grandmother as it looks as though the imposter is wearing another horrible mask (like in a previous dream).

It’s too late though and whoever is haunting me punches me violently in my ribs on my right hand side, I let out a gasp of air and a long groan. (Something which I actually do in waking life too, waking not just myself from the nightmare but also waking my wife too, my wife mentioned it to me later in the day noting that she thought I was having a nightmare, this is very rare and unusual for me as it is probably the first time I have been awoken from a dream in such a way, hence the message of the dream is probably very important).

Additional Comments:

Thoughts: The lucidity in this dream was so amazing and quite unexpected as I hadn’t planned or even hoped to have such an experience, it was unusual that it came-on half way through the dream too, the dream in itself started off very vividly (the little people grabbed my attention as they were so small and yet had adult faces, very, very eerie). It really was amazing to be this lucid as I could actually see things moving as if they were alive just like the swirls in the marble, it wasn’t jerkily animated movement either (not frame by frame or still images but very fluid and smooth, true waking life movement, just like real life….I really wanted to call out and tell somebody that I was lucid such was my excitement! I’d love to induce another experience just like this but haven’t yet figured out what triggers such spontaneous experiences, I went to bed a little earlier than normal and probably fell asleep between 10:30 p.m. and 11:00 p.m. waking at just after 3 a.m. to record Dream 1 then falling back asleep and awakening at approximately 5:40 a.m. after having the above dream. I did eat some spicy meat for tea which I’ve noticed almost always gives me lucid dreams in some form or another….in fact as I write this I had a crazy idea of maybe trying to take a little paprika before going to bed to see if it influences my dreams in any way. As regards the dream itself it contains a great deal of recurring symbolism from many of my past dreams and is probably yet another indicator of how I am moving away from a childlike world view or of seeing myself as a child or of feelings of being perceived or thought of as a child (strange for a 36 year old to say that I guess) and of adopting a more mature persona, its interesting to see how the Japanese and Italian theme seems to be constantly recurring throughout many of my dreams, this must be important somehow I feel.

Dream 1: Moving on in the mall – It is night time and I find myself in the mall close to where I live, inside it is deserted with no shoppers or shop owners about but the lights are all on and there is ‘mechanical’ activity in the shops with appliances all switched on. A trio of three unfamiliar men dressed as if from the years between the 1930’s and 1940’s are stood talking about 100 feet away from me, I eavesdrop in on them. One of the men is smartly dressed and highly educated and speaks perfect impeccable English, the other two men appear to be friends with one another, one is older than the other and they almost seem like father and son perhaps. The educated man is very wise like a philosopher or more like a psychoanalyst, he helps the two other men to resolve a psychological problem they both share, it is a very difficult problem from my perspective and their own but the intelligent man untangles their dilemma quickly with great ease. I listen as he speaks steadily with specifically chosen healing words without pause, break or hesitation, I admire the man greatly and for me he is the epitome of the perfect man. After the intelligent man has solved the problems of the other men who walk away and leave the mall he walks over to where I am sat cross-legged like an infant on the mall floor. The man comes from behind me and rests his hands on my shoulders and chats with me in a loving and fatherly sort of way, the man gives me three big heavy Christmas presents all wrapped up in colorful paper. I tear open my gifts excitedly and discover three huge voluminous antiquarian style books. I am suddenly gripped by the terrible (and irrational?) fear that everything about this drama indicates that I am going to die or will be going away from this world very soon. (The power of this dream made me wake up immediately afterwards which was at just after 3 a.m. in the morning, I wasn’t really awake but I also wasn’t asleep and began to reflect back on the dream and then fall back into its drama, the following is what happened....). The intelligent man morphs into a large grey donkey and gives out a long loud laughing “Heehaw”, I immediately feel very annoyed and aggravated at this turn of events and wonder why my subconscious would transform the intelligent man into such a symbolically and stereotypically foolish beast. I pursue the thought and silently demand and search for answers, which finally come in the form of an intuitive thought forms that one, the donkey is a beast of burden and works hard (perhaps like the intelligent man) but it also has a fun loving humorous side as expressed in its laughter and hence these are qualities I should somehow try to incorporate into myself (??).

Dream 3: Crossroads – It is daytime and I find myself at my Nan’s house, a party is being prepared by many family members from both sides of my Mum’s and Dad’s families some people are familiar and others are unfamiliar to me. My great grandmother is also present and at some point the dream drifts deeper into a soap opera which she used to like, two of my Dad’s sisters and my grandmother become actively involved in this drama whereas I and my great grandmother watch detachedly from a distance. In a farm courtyard I watch as one aunt who I can’t say I have ever dreamt of before tries to drive an old cheap English car from the 1970’s up through the gates, it seems like a struggle and she can’t quite make it so gets out and comes over to sit on some hay bales not far from where my great gran and I are stood watching like spirits. Another aunt(the artistic one who I quite admire) drives in and up onto the courtyard easily in a feminine miniature white 4x4 vehicle, she gets out of her car after parking it and then goes to sit with my other aunt on the bales of hay. The aunt with the cheap car begins to tell a sad tale of how her marriage is one of convenience there is nothing particularly bad about it but it’s not very fulfilling, the other aunt tries to help with caring guiding words but it seems like a depressing situation. Back at my Nan’s some unfamiliar long haired rocker cowboy types in long dusters and leather trousers turn up at my Nan’s and walk into the sitting room so as to join in the party. I feel very envious of the tall macho men and want to be like them, I go to look in mirror and see that I am white and pasty with black hair cut into a straggly bob, I look immature, gothic, ugly and ill (not at all what I look like in waking life!). I soon realize that everyone has brought presents with them to share except for me, this is shameful so I quickly get dressed and go out to try and buy some, unfortunately I can’t get my jeans on or to fit but eventually later and after much struggling I manage to squeeze into them. I go out to an unfamiliar area in town not far from my Nan’s where I find the streets busy with last minute shoppers, I am disappointed to see that everything has been sold and there is next to nothing left for me to buy for Christmas presents just scraps and odds and ends. I go into a cheap unoccupied open air stall which is selling cleaning products but there is nothing here of interest or which would make a nice present. Just then I see a cake stall owned by a gypsy who strikes me as being very familiar although I can’t quite place him, I see that he has a boxed selection of four cream cakes left, they represent the last of his wares so I quickly take them so as to have something to take back to my Nan’s as a present. But when I go to pay the gypsy man he rejects my €10 note because he says it comes from a French region which is also a female name and this is somehow negative seeing as I am a man. I turn and leave feeling sad and low that I will be going back empty handed, just then an unfamiliar woman falls to the floor in front of me on her hands and knees and takes up a very sexual and provocative position in front of me with her rear raised high in the air, I see that the lady is wearing a pair of bikini style panties tied into knots at the hips. The way the woman pushes her behind out at me I get the impression the woman is trying to entice me to have sex with her, but her husband is present and as much as I want to take her I feel very awkward and turn away half suppressing my desires and half feeling a strange sort of self imposed sexual abstinence.
  • Themes
  • Nightmare
  • Dramatic
  • Transition
  • Action
  • Violence
  • Success
  • Failure
  • Mortality
  • Health
  • Relationships
  • Aggression
  • Settings
  • Afternoon
  • Familiar
  • Home
  • Indoors
  • Morning
  • Outdoors
  • Present
  • Sea
  • Unfamiliar
  • Characters
  • Celebrity
  • Child
  • Creatures
  • Imaginary
  • Other Relative(s)
  • Animals
  • Significant Other
  • Stranger
  • Unfamiliar
  • Emotions
  • Anger
  • Rage
  • Worry
  • Guilt/ Shame
  • Fear/ Dread
  • Anxiety
  • Happiness
  • Relaxed
  • Confusion
  • Helpless
  • Shock
  • Abandoned
  • Activities
  • Auditory
  • Fighting
  • Movement
  • Physical
  • Problem Solving
  • Searching
  • Thinking
  • Visual
  • Keywords
    Island
    Boat
    Marble
    Beard
    Baby
    Add'l Emotions
    Eeriness
    Contrasting
    Hampered
    Lucidity
    Struggling

    The end of an island.

    Date of dream: Wednesday, December 10, 2008

    Level of Lucidity: N/A     Level of Cohesiveness:     Rating:
    Lucid Intent? No    

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    It is daytime and I find myself living as a native on an extremely remote conical shaped lush mountainous Polynesian island way out in the vast infinite ocean.

    The island has been thrown into chaos in the form of many natural disasters, up until now none of the islanders including myself realized it but our island is in fact a giant volcano poking up from the depths of the sea.

    The volcano has awoken and is the cause of the recent calamities the volcano is in the process of spewing out a hailstorm of huge volcanic rocks which rain down for miles around, the volcano’s wrath is tremendous and its energy is literally blowing the entire island to smithereens.

    I sense that it is only a short matter of time perhaps only days before the volcano explodes and when it does I feel certain that its force will be so great that it will literally destroy itself and everything living upon it and disappear out of existence.

    As frightening as conditions are on the volcanic island I realize that the islands self- destruction is actually a good thing and I look forward with a strange kind of relish to the day when the volcano finally erupts and obliterates itself out of existence.

    Additional Comments:

    Thoughts: Although this dream probably seems ominous it was actually quite positive regardless of the chaos, I think that the symbolism represents something personal, internal and psychology as opposed to any kind of outward frustrations or anger in my external waking life. I’ve read that to dream of a volcano erupting can represent a breaking into consciousness of repressed urges, fears, terrors, or even insights and healing, the healing aspect of which can be disturbing as well as cathartic. Both the Polynesian theme and the symbol of an island are both concepts that have been recurring in my dreams many times over the past few weeks and months.

    Dream 2: The Bold and the Beautiful....and the breasts – (Just as a warning this dream contains some bizarre imagery). I find myself immersed in one of my wife’s television soap operas I am with a small group of male and female antagonists who belong to the same family, we are rushing to a hospital where we have heard that one of the female characters from the rival family has just given birth to a baby. The group of people I am with (myself included) don’t think that the woman was in a fit state to have a child as we thought she was mentally troubled, we are all very angry about this and rush to the hospital to confront her and tell her off (?). When we arrive into the small maternity ward we see the lady who has recently given birth leaning over the cot which holds her baby, she has her back to us and appears to perhaps be sobbing or weeping over her newborn, her long brown straggly hair seems to convince us of her insanity and we go over to confront her and launch into our verbal tirade. But just before we do this the doctor who delivered her baby enters the room, he has a wild otherworldly glassy eyed expression on his face, he tells us that we have it all wrong and that the mother of the new born isn’t mad at all and is quite sane and with that the lady stands up from the baby’s bed and turns to her left where we all see that her louse is unbuttoned and her large breasts are exposed. (Without trying to sound vulgar and just trying to explain the feelings from within the dream....) the woman’s breasts and particularly her nipples (on which a lot of emphasis was put on in the dream) appear extremely inviting and not just to me but to the other men and women who are with me and the doctor too. The group I am with including the doctor wish to suckle on the woman’s breasts and she seems to know this too, so as if inviting us and somehow demonstrating some kind of feminine power to nourish and nurture the woman squeezes one of her breasts and a trickle of milk squirts out.
  • Themes
  • Dramatic
  • Transition
  • Action
  • Mortality
  • Mystical
  • Aggression
  • Settings
  • Afternoon
  • Geographical
  • Outdoors
  • Present
  • Sea
  • Unfamiliar
  • Characters
  • Other Relative(s)
  • Significant Other
  • Unfamiliar
  • Emotions
  • Anger
  • Rage
  • Anxiety
  • Happiness
  • Shock
  • Activities
  • Movement
  • Physical
  • Thinking
  • Visual
  • Keywords
    Sea
    Polynesia
    Island
    Volcano
    Hail
    Add'l Emotions
    Remoteness
    Chaos
    Unawareness
    Self-destruction
    Ending

    Captain Cook’ed.

    Date of dream: Tuesday, September 16, 2008

    Level of Lucidity:     Level of Cohesiveness:     Rating:
    Lucid Intent? No    

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    It is daytime and I feel just as if I am Captain Cook the old English explorer and navigator. The large old tall ship I have been sailing in has run aground on a far off land somewhere in the South Pacific, I decide to disembark and tell my crew to do the same.

    I walk up the beach a short distance to where a jungle area begins. On the threshold of the tropical forest I see something lying on the ground near to some old stone ruins so I reach down to pick it up.

    I see that the object is a Hei-tiki (A Hei-tiki is an ornamental neck pendant worn by the Maori peoples. I’ve added some more information in my additional comments). No sooner than I have picked the green amulet up than it crumbles to dust in my hands.

    Suddenly a group of savage looking natives appears from the jungle as if to confront us, they really are quite terrifying and look just like stereotypical head hunters all wild with bones through their noses. The leader of the group carries a tall thick phallus shaped totem pole about 3 metres tall which appears to be made from jade and is carved with intricate mythical imagery of legendary animals.

    I am convinced that the natives are cannibals and that I and my crew are almost certain to face a horrible death boiled alive in a cauldron and then eaten. There is no use trying to put up a fight now though so we surrender to the natives and accept our fate.

    Additional Comments:

    Thoughts: All of last night’s dreams seemed to concern my struggle between what I guess I could call ones more instinctual side as opposed to the perceived or seemingly higher spiritual side, I am actually starting to wonder if I haven’t polarized things so much in a mental or psychological way that they haven’t become kind of distorted? The story of Captain Cook is one that is very memorable to me as I had a children’s story book about his life when I was small, I always found the part about his death very sad especially as it was accompanied by a poignant picture too. Now when I read back about Captain Cook’s death at least in some retellings of the story it seems even more profound and full of rich symbolism, I’ve put a link just below with a better retelling than I can manage to fit in here:

    Captain Cook’s death: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Captain_cook#Third_voyage_.281776.E2.80.9379.29

    The last time I saw a Hei-tiki was way back at primary school when the school was visited by some past students who had voyaged to New Zealand, they gave a slide show of their travels and then gave the nun’s who were the teachers 5 Hei-tiki neck pendants for the children. The nun’s decided to raffle them to the children and everyone had to buy a ticket to try and win one. I didn’t get to enter the competition but years later at one of the schools jumble sales I saw one of the neck amulets amongst all of the rummage on the tables but by then it had lost its magic for me as I was older, I was sad and disappointed to see that it was just simple piece of green plastic. I’m not quite sure how or where that is meant to fit in with my dream but it’s just to shed some light on how the amulet symbol fits into my life! The barn dream and also the teeth dream in an indirect way are also perhaps about me trying to cultivate my higher side. Here is a link to a bit more information about the ‘Hei-tiki’ amulet if anyone is interested in reading too:

    Hei-tiki neck pendant: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hei-tiki

    Dream 1: Dental disaster – I’m viewing somebody’s teeth very close up at a macro level the teeth are in a grotesquely exaggerated bad state of decay, although the view is juxtaposed I feel pretty certain that I am viewing my own (dream….I can’t emphasise that enough!) teeth (in reality my teeth are not at all like this thankfully....this was more like something from a horror movie. This dream has to be purely symbolic I feel and I think I know what it might be related to, why are teeth dreams like this so upsetting and saddening I wonder?). Bizarrely the decay all seems to have started at the root level and the upper parts of the teeth although in a bad way are nowhere near as bad as the spindly yellowing rotten roots. The gums seem to have receded to such an extent that the roots are virtually completely exposed and kind of look like small hollow arches below where the teeth are supported by the now thin acid eroded roots. It’s a miserably depressing sight but a wise dentist who accompanies me offers some advice, he suggests that because the teeth are so rotten they should all be pulled out and the person who I’m viewing (Me?) is given dentures or false teeth. It’s a terribly saddening thought but it seems that the dentist has got a point with his extreme solution and at some level it does seem like the best course of action to take, in fact it even seems positive somehow. (On waking though I’m not sure how I can see that the dentures would be ‘symbolically’ positive, surely that would suggest something false, like untrue words or something like that?).

    Dream 2: Milk for contemplation – It would appear that I have taken a step backwards and am once again renovating an old barn and trying to convert it into something more civilized like a house (this whole renovating dream symbolism is starting to make sense to me a bit now), the job in hand is terrible and it looks like it will never be finished its just too much of an undertaking. Thankfully I am joined by my childhood best friend, I’m so glad he is here as he is so full of self-confidence I just know that he will be able to help me out. My friend takes me out for a while in his car, at some point we do a perfect u-turn in the road not far from a place where I worked about 10 years ago. My friend is driving so well I really admire him the turn he made in the road was perfect to the nearest millimetre and didn’t necessitate any stopping and reversing. The friend takes me to a very old worldly rustic countryside pub where we sit for a while and are later joined by some 2 or 3 of my work colleagues. One of the work friends gives me a bottle of cherry brandy as a gift and we chat about it for a short while. Later the friend and I return to the barn so that he can contemplate the problem of the renovation, I go to touch some particle board and it depressingly comes away from the wall in my hand such is its shoddy quality and installation. The friend asks me to get him a drink to help him contemplate the problem renovation further, the friend asks for a glass of ice cold milk. I go into an adjoining room where I’m surprised to see many more work colleagues mostly managers from work, there is something of a function or party going on here with a lot of hustle and bustle near to a table where I see a large punch bowl full of milk with ice cubes floating about in it. I struggle to push through and eventually manage to get my friend the glass of special milk he asked for.
  • Themes
  • Sexuality
  • Dramatic
  • Transition
  • Loss
  • Mortality
  • Mystical
  • Settings
  • Afternoon
  • Geographical
  • Outdoors
  • Present
  • Sea
  • Unfamiliar
  • Characters
  • Celebrity
  • Creatures
  • Imaginary
  • Stranger
  • Unfamiliar
  • Emotions
  • Sadness
  • Worry
  • Anxiety
  • Helpless
  • Shock
  • Abandoned
  • Activities
  • Movement
  • Thinking
  • Visual
  • Keywords
    Ship
    Island
    Pendant
    Totem
    Cannibal
    Add'l Emotions
    Marooned
    Threshold
    Exploring
    Primitive
    Submission