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Date of dream: Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Level of Lucidity: N/A     Level of Cohesiveness:     Rating:
Lucid Intent? No    

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Daytime and I find myself in the city where I lived about 6 or 7 years ago I am stood on a street corner where a side street on a hill meets a main road.

Significant details in the dream are, to my left in waking life a supermarket which specializes in frozen food products (but which plays no part in the dream) and to my right a new large courthouse which is purely a dream construct.

I have driven a car by myself to the top of the side street which meets the main road and stopped at the traffic lights which have changed to amber indicating that I should prepare to stop as they are about to change to red.

As I wait at the lights I see my wife struggling with some shopping bags outside on the sidewalk so I get out to help her. I am in something of a dilemma as for some unforeseen reason I cannot combine what my wife is doing with what I am doing.

It is complicated to explain but what I mean is that I cannot simply put my wife’s shopping bags into the boot of my car to relieve her burden (and make things easier for the both of us) but I have to get out and leave my car and carry the bags for her.

This I do and get out of my car leaving it at the traffic lights whilst I help my wife who seems uncharacteristically lacking her usual strength of character. My wife seems to drift off and goes to wait in my car whilst I wait at the junction with the heavy shopping bags, it is here that I note that in my left hand I am holding a raw fillet of steak. Ego wise the raw meat isn’t particularly pleasant to hold but I’m aware from within the dream that it is a good wholesome symbol full of potential and raw energy.

It’s at this point that I notice the new courthouse across the street and to my left, I decide to cross over the road to investigate it further. The doors to the court house are two huge heavy caramel coloured wooden ones, the doors swing shut with ease but I am somehow made aware by the new top judge of the courthouse that she would like them kept open at all times.

Fortunately there is an iron fixture bolted to the back of the door which hooks into a clasp on the wall just behind, I push the heavy door struggling for a little while to fit the hook into the eye but eventually manage to get the door held open as the judge wished. I feel very pleased to have kept the door open like this, it’s quite an achievement and I sense that the judge is very happy with me too.

Without actually meeting the judge I sense her and feel her presence, she is a very fair and just lady who is psychologically, intellectually and emotionally mature. I feel strongly that she wants the very best for my wife and I, in some regards she represents the perfect human being combining the compassion of the archetypal mother with the authority of the model father.

I return back to my car where I see my wife waiting for me but before getting in I see a message on the traffic lights, it explains that exceptionally I could have previously driven through the amber lights as there is currently something of a free flow situation on the roads at this junction where all road users have priority due to some kind of temporary problem with the traffic lights.

It now dawns on me but I hadn’t really been paying attention when I first approached the traffic lights at the beginning of the dream, they weren’t changing from amber to red indicating for me to come to a halt at all but were actually displaying a constantly flashing amber light warning me to proceed with caution.

Additional Comments:

Thoughts: I’m surprised my dream recall has been as good as it has the past few days as I haven’t been getting my usual amount of sleep. This dream might have come about after a stressful experience that happened at home yesterday but which turned out okay in the end, the experience was one which made me see things in a different light and this is perhaps how the traffic lights fit into the dream drama.

Dream 2: Masks in the attic – Late evening time indoors and I find myself climbing up a small ladder into a vaguely familiar loft, from below it looks like the one at home but inside I discover this attic is extremely welcoming, cozy and warm the sort of place where one might come for peace and solitude in order to reflect on the past, but is still not a room as such merely a comfortable neatly cluttered storage space. I pull out an old trunk like chest the kind pirates used for their treasure and open the lid. I see a collection of old neatly stacked beautifully crafted masks, I compassionately and gently lift the fragile masks out to briefly look at them. I smile a gentle reminiscing sort of smile there is something quite pleasing and maturely contemplative being able to look at the masks face to face like this, they are sort of like old acquaintances whose age I can ascertain by their papery frailness. I have brought up with me into the attic another mask to place in the trunk, it’s that of a beautiful Pierrot clown that has a sad martyr like expression similar to one side of the Janus masks associated with theatres, that of the one representing tragedy. I ceremoniously place the mask gently into the trunk with the others, carefully closing the lid after which I replace a burgundy blanket over the chest tucking it back in its rightful place in a dark secluded corner.

Dream 3: The wanderer’s wound – Daytime and I find myself inside the McDonalds fast food restaurant in the town where I lived about 10 years ago, I am sat eating a delicious and satisfying beef burger. Sat slumped at a table across the way from me is a homeless tramp (the man looks like a homeless man I often saw around and about the same town in waking life all of those years ago, although I never approached the man or spoke with him I found him fascinating. He had long wavy brown hair and a full beard, he was older than me but beneath his hair and beard had the face of a young man, his long hair and beard making him appear older than his years. It was just possible to see that he had a very noble, wise, educated handsomely sculpted sort of face but somehow it also had a weariness or tiredness as if brought on by some kind of relentless questing or searching. He looked very much like the character of Percival or Parsifal from the film ‘Excalibur’ by John Boorman (which with hindsight almost certainly seems relevant to this dream) but I also often associated him with the German philosopher Nietzsche too and often referred to him by this name in my private thoughts whenever I saw him)....anyway on with the dream....as I gaze over at the man I’m suddenly shocked to see that he is bleeding, a thick dark oozing blood slowly treacles out onto the restaurant floor from what appears to be his left thigh. I look flittingly about the deserted restaurant somewhat concerned looking to see if anyone else has noticed the man’s emergency, but nobody has, all except for a vaguely familiar boyish waitress who has come to wipe my table clean. We both go over inquisitively to see if the man is okay but we are frightened to see that he appears unconscious. The waitress says that as the restaurant isn’t busy we can take him out back into the kitchens and tidy him up she explains that the manager wouldn’t mind as she is a very benevolent lady. We drag the emaciated man who is unusually heavy through the restaurant, past the service counters and into the kitchen where we lift him up onto a stainless steel kitchen work surface. We survey the man as if looking at a hospital patient who is about to be operated on by two inexperienced graduate doctors, each of us picking out areas on the man which need attention. Several things seem urgent, one is to get the man out of his filthy clothes which we begin to do, and secondly I would like to wash him and trim his hair and give him a shave but these ablutions will have to wait as his constantly bleeding wound necessitates urgent attention. We strip the unconscious Christ like man of all his garments and I begin to tend to his wound by mopping up the thick dark blood, as I gently swab the wound I look more closely and am suddenly shocked to see that the gash is actually a vagina, I recoil with a sense of panic and horror, feeling confused I quickly ask the waitress to do something to stem the flow of unceasing menstrual blood. Thankfully the waitress remains calm and collected but tells me that it is only I who can help curtail the loss of blood, although the man’s predicament is stressful at least for what I think must be for him, throughout the whole dream I personally feel very complete, whole and as if the man’s problem isn’t so much ‘my’ problem but that I felt obliged to help and do him a good turn. Regardless of these feelings I still panic though at the sight of the blood and swivel about on the spot frantically looking for something to help the man, in my confusion I grab an onion from amongst some vegetables on the work surface and clumsily stuff it into the wound plugging the hole as if using it as a cork. The boyish waitress smiles and gives me shake of the head and a wry laugh as if indicating that this will not help, I decide to remove the onion and as I do so I see a small golf ball sized pink sphere inside the man’s thigh, I wonder if it is not a bone, ball joint or the man’s knee cap but this doesn’t seem so. I put my fingers inside the gash and try to take a hold of the ball to remove it but find that it is very stubborn. I do eventually manage to remove the thing from inside the man’s thigh and am taken aback to see that it is the body of a little fetus or sleeping boy. I carefully place the little dormant boy on the kitchen work surface near to the vegetables whilst I go back to tend to the man’s wound. Much to my surprise the bleeding appears to have quelled and the wound looks surprisingly healed. I turn my attention back to the little boy but when I look for him on the work top all I find amongst the lettuce and other vegetables is a little piece of root ginger with arms, legs and a knobbly little head just like a mandrake root.
  • Themes
  • Dramatic
  • Transition
  • Action
  • Success
  • Authority
  • Relationships
  • Friendly
  • Politics/ Govt.
  • Settings
  • Automobile
  • Familiar
  • Geographical
  • Outdoors
  • Present
  • Town/ City
  • Characters
  • Familiar
  • Imaginary
  • Other Relative(s)
  • Significant Other
  • Unfamiliar
  • Emotions
  • Worry
  • Anxiety
  • Relaxed
  • Confusion
  • Shock
  • Accomplished
  • Activities
  • Auditory
  • Driving
  • Movement
  • Physical
  • Problem Solving
  • Thinking
  • Visual
  • Keywords
    Traffic lights
    Wife
    Bag
    Steak
    Judge
    Add'l Emotions
    Openness
    Judgment
    Authority
    Compassion
    Misunderstanding

    The faecal folkist.

    Date of dream: Wednesday, November 12, 2008

    Level of Lucidity: N/A     Level of Cohesiveness:     Rating:
    Lucid Intent? No    

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    A woman who was a member in an all male ultra rightwing fascist organisation called the CCC has been expelled and forced to leave on pain of death, the woman escapes and forms her own ultra leftwing government of one.

    The lady works to become something of a revolutionary folk singer in the style of Joan Baez, all of her songs and subject matter concern faeces and defecation (???).

    In a recording studio I watch the moment when the lady’s first album comes hot off the press and is excitedly presented to her.

    The full colour album cover has a mid to late 1960’s feel and shows on the right hand side a close up of a naked woman curled up asleep in the leafy branches of a tree, all that is visible is a rear view of the woman’s waist and wide curvaceous buttocks which very much have the shape of a firm plump pear.

    A muscular pair of male arms intrudes into the photograph on the album cover from the left hand side and appears to be making an attempt to grope the sleeping woman’s bum.

    Additional Comments:

    Thoughts: This dream was plain strange and may simply have come about through a lack of sleep and tiredness, but just before shutting down my computer last night I saw an upsetting news headline about a lady who was murdered because she refused to take part in some kind of ritual of an organisation called the KKK, I never opened up the link to read the news story in full as it was late and I had to go to bed but it made me feel terribly sad and upset and this probably affected my sleep before I went to bed. The strange dream may also be symbolic of course as it does seem to contain some of my usual themes.
  • Themes
  • Nightmare
  • Sexuality
  • Music
  • Dramatic
  • Transition
  • Violence
  • Loss
  • Success
  • Mortality
  • Health
  • Aggression
  • Politics/ Govt.
  • Settings
  • Evening
  • Geographical
  • Indoors
  • Night
  • Outdoors
  • Present
  • Unfamiliar
  • Characters
  • Celebrity
  • Imaginary
  • Politician
  • Significant Other
  • Stranger
  • Unfamiliar
  • Emotions
  • Sadness
  • Worry
  • Fear/ Dread
  • Anxiety
  • Happiness
  • Embarrassed
  • Helpless
  • Shock
  • Activities
  • Auditory
  • Movement
  • Physical
  • Problem Solving
  • Thinking
  • Visual
  • Keywords
    Men
    Woman
    Feces
    Orchard
    Pear
    Add'l Emotions
    Expelled
    Rightwing
    Leftwing
    Revolutionary
    Sexual

    A Polish polemic.

    Date of dream: Sunday, November 09, 2008

    Level of Lucidity: N/A     Level of Cohesiveness:     Rating:
    Lucid Intent? No    

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    Evening time and my wife is very ill (in the dream) the only place where she can be treated and have an operation is in Poland so we set off there in search of help.

    As soon we as we arrive in Poland I note a very heavy oppressive ambiance, the people are very friendly and kind but the whole dream reality including its people are infused with what I can only describe as a hopelessly depressing religious sadness.

    My wife and I walk across a park where there is something of a large triumphal arch or perhaps a cenotaph where two soldiers clad in grey winter coats march sentry like back and forth in front of the monument, the two soldiers look Russian and march with a very slow sombre gait. One of the soldiers bumps into me as he marches and smiles apologetically.

    We continue on our way and come to a decadent cold and grey old Eastern block subway, my wife seems to know where she is going and where the hospital or surgery is that she has to visit for healing so I follow after her and climb aboard the underground train. In fact I actually have to crawl inside the train such is its miniature size, inside the train I literally have to tuck myself into a ball to fit inside.

    As the train pulls away I have the thought that it would be a terrible way to die all cramped up and claustrophobic like this if the train were to crash now, but I have second thoughts and realise that death is death and I don’t mind how I die really. (Strange feelings accompanied this part of the dream, it was almost as if I was alive not for myself but for somebody else perhaps my wife and hence dying would merely be a way of exiting this particular life drama).

    The underground train arrives at its destination and we head back up to the surface where we come out near a park, we walk thought the cold grey landscape and stroll along a riverside path and stop at something of an old tavern.

    My wife and I take a seat outdoors at a wooden table next to the river and rest a little while, an elderly old lady shortly comes out to serve us and brings with her an unusually very tall glass bottle of clear alcohol. At first glance I think that it is vodka with pieces of tangerine segments floating about inside it as if to impart a delicate flavour but when it is uncorked I see and taste that it is actually Martini with small pieces of beef suspended in the alcohol (?).

    (The is a subtle recurrence of Italian symbolism here perhaps which might be important and something for me to reflect upon, this dream seems to contain a lot of references to different cultural archetypes).

    I pour myself the vermouth and suck the juice from the pieces of beef before throwing the chunks to two swans gently paddling in the river just next to where we are sat (a symbolic act I’m sure).

    A group of people come along and sit down just behind us, my wife has her back to this group of people but I can see them clearly, one of the ladies is a young African tribal lady who appears to have no hands and only stumps, I’m shocked by this but something about it reminds me of the female myth of the Handless (or armless) Maiden (....the counterpart to the masculine wounded Fisher King myth).

    The elderly lady who brought us the drink appears to have finished her shift for the day and invites us back to her council house to stay as her guests for a while, we walk into a grey decaying communist era city and make our way over to a housing block and head upstairs to where the old lady lives.

    Once through the front door my wife sees her sister in a sitting room area at the end of the corridor and hurries down childlike to see her happily, in the meantime the old woman takes me to one side and leads me to a bedroom door which she slowly opens.

    Inside the room I see a very buxom young curvy naked woman resting prone on all fours in the middle of the room, the woman has very large pendulous breasts which hang down in-between her arms in front of her. At first the young woman symbolically makes me think of an obedient or domesticated animal perhaps a dog or a horse but it is actually more like a docile cow she resembles I eventually realise.

    The aged mother of the young women urges me forward with an eager smile indicating that I am to have her (meaning that she is offering me her daughter to have sex with). I thank the old woman with an awkward and difficult smile but decline the offer, the young woman looks very sad and unhappy.

    (I did some dream association with this part of the dream sort of trying to see things from different angles and putting myself into the various selves of the dream characters and trying to feel and see things from their point of view. My immediate personal thought or feeling from within the dream was that the voluptuous young woman was sad because she felt like she was being used, but when I tried to put myself in her position and imagine why she was sad I was surprised by the first thing that came into my head which happened to be that she was sad because I actually refused and wouldn’t have sex with her).

    After leaving the rather disappointed old lady I follow my wife into the sitting room and sit down upon a rug in the centre of the room, my wife and her sister have taken out an old worn and battered hand made board game that must have been lying around in the old woman’s flat for years and years.

    I join my wife and sister-in-law in the game and see that they are playing the board game known as ‘Ludo’. (The word ‘Ludo’ may be a play on the word ‘Lewd’ considering the previous scene I feel).

    After playing for a while I get up bored from the carpet to go and look in a mirror that hangs above a fireplace which looks very much like one my grandmother has in a similar position. When I get to the mirror I’m surprised to see that I don’t have a reflection. As I reflect on not reflecting I see my wife reflected in the mirror chatting with another man at a bar, the scene I see in the mirror reminds me of the painting by Édouard Manet called ‘Le Bar aux Folies-Bergère’ (A Bar at the Folies-Bergère).

    Additional Comments:

    Thoughts: This dream contains a lot of my usual themes, I’ve been trying to think more recently along the lines of everything in the dreamscape perhaps being a projection of myself and somehow trying to lucidly manifest this realisation in my dreams. From within this dream I did actually want to have sex with the old lady’s daughter but couldn’t bring myself to do it as I thought that she was sad because she felt forced by her mother (with hindsight this seemed wrong and she seemed to actually be sad because I didn’t have sex with her) but anyway if the previous idea has any validity then this character possibly represents an aspect of myself which I need to unite with and assimilate into my greater self. Apparently Poland’s Independence Day is incidentally on November 11th (something I did not know previously) and on the morning of having this dream I read on the BBC news of the Polish community in Britain celebrating this independence on the 8th.
  • Themes
  • Sexuality
  • Dramatic
  • Transition
  • Mortality
  • Health
  • Spiritual
  • Relationships
  • Friendly
  • Politics/ Govt.
  • Settings
  • Afternoon
  • Geographical
  • Home
  • Indoors
  • Morning
  • Outdoors
  • Present
  • Town/ City
  • Unfamiliar
  • Characters
  • Creatures
  • Familiar
  • Imaginary
  • Other Relative(s)
  • Animals
  • Unfamiliar
  • Emotions
  • Sadness
  • Worry
  • Guilt/ Shame
  • Anxiety
  • Relaxed
  • Embarrassed
  • Helpless
  • Shock
  • Activities
  • Auditory
  • Movement
  • Physical
  • Problem Solving
  • Searching
  • Thinking
  • Visual
  • Keywords
    Poland
    Subway
    Beef
    Swan
    Game
    Add'l Emotions
    Dying
    Coldness
    Dutiful
    Lewd
    Invisible